I'm.a.little.teapot

Should I keep these shoes? They were quite expensive but I am...

Mon, 20 May 2013 09:43:09 +0100

Should I keep these shoes?

They were quite expensive but I am always worried about sandals beauae I think they look weird on my feet and I hate feet. Anyway, I need advice; are they worth it?

Hello, can you compare a London to Oxford intake? Where are your favourite places to eat in London? x

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:30:06 +0100

I can’t really compare the way I eat in my two homes objectively, I get more ice cream at home because that is my favourite food but too expensive for me to buy for myself regularly when I’m at uni haha.

My favourite places to eat in London… ooh a toughie. I LOVE Ottolenghi, but don’t go there very much because it is rather extortionately priced, there is also no waitrose in Oxford, so I appreciate that. Near my house is a great vegetarian curry place, Rasa, which I enjoy because I only eat shit curry in Oxford. There are also lots of great independent Vietnamese cafes, which are wonderful. I like to have breakfast at The Breakfast Club, I like Thai food from Yumyums, I like almond croissants from the Stoke Newington Farmers Market, froyo from Frae, ice cream from Fentons, sweets from Cyber Candy, although my favourite pizza is from a chain… Strada.

Me and my beautiful blueberry pie ice cream cone (blueberry ice...

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:15:41 +0100

Me and my beautiful blueberry pie ice cream cone (blueberry ice cream with blueberry sauce an cheesecake pieces in)

Did you manage to increase now you're in London?

Sun, 19 May 2013 23:13:57 +0100

Yeah, but I don’t think its just a result of being in London. I have been feeling positive and motivated; I’m bored of looking thin and I am brave enough to exist in this world as a normal sized person, what’s more, I’m excited to really be all that I can be. This is todays intake:

breakfast: 2 slices of super big, thick bakery ‘beer’ bread, one with butter and jam and one with nutella and banana, milky coffee

snack: apple

lunch: m&s salmon, mayonnaise and watercress sandwich, pack of doritos

snack: large scoop of blueberry pie ice cream in a waffle cone (amazing!)

snack: half a large bag of doritos with salsa

dinner: big portion of mushroom risotto with crispy mushrooms and a dressed side salad

dessert: strawberry cornetto ;)

Will you still love me when I’m no longer young and beautiful? Lana del rey get out of my...

Sun, 19 May 2013 21:31:02 +0100

Will you still love me when I’m no longer young and beautiful?

Lana del rey get out of my head.

Though gatsby was definitely worth this song being ridiculously in my head. I’m not one of those people who is crazy about the book, but I LOVED the film!

do you think the reason you're not gaining is because you're eating a normal amount of food, as opposed to more than normal which is needed to gain. if you eat the same amount or thereabouts as those around you (without eating disorders, who aren't aiming to gain weight) then how can you expect to gain? clearly your metabolism is normal and not still in starvation mode, those intakes aren't huge, even if they are hard for you, they're probably an average intake for a teen.

Sat, 18 May 2013 22:34:39 +0100

Yeah, this is spot on. I really need to push myself to eat more than feels normal. Bleh.

Chocolate and raspberry frozen yoghurt with milk chocolate chips...

Sat, 18 May 2013 14:11:43 +0100

Chocolate and raspberry frozen yoghurt with milk chocolate chips and raspberries #ivemisssedlondon

Good intake for yesterday

Sat, 18 May 2013 12:32:24 +0100

Breakfast: 2 golden syrup weetabix with hot milk

Lunch 1: tuna bean salad, tomato and basil pasta salad, couscous with roasted vegetables and green salad with roasted tomatoes and dressing

Lunch 2: large plate of chips (haha, needed this after all the salad)

Snack: fruit salad, 2 chocolate digestives

Dinner: large wagamama ramen with noodles, soup, fried tofu and vegetables

Drinks: 4 double vodka lemonades

Snack: pack of hula hoops, a piece of toast with Nutella and a handful of maoam sweets

I’m on my way back to London for the weekend (yay!) I had a tough couple of days at uni and wanted to escape. I want my mum and my home friends and my bed and a bath.

#wecanticeskate

Sat, 18 May 2013 01:51:29 +0100

#wecanticeskate

For fucks sake people, stop collaring Beth. If she forgets to post her intake so be it - she has a life to lead you know!! It's not everyones responsibility to badger her about things. Whilst of course it is nice to demonstrate care - placing demands e.g. 'you should keep us updated' is not freaking cool!!!

Thu, 16 May 2013 14:18:02 +0100

Haha thanks. I do have a life, and I don’t mind posting my intake but I will do it when I have time.

Beth keep us plated in here please, what has happened? Things seem to have gone hugely downhill?

Thu, 16 May 2013 14:02:46 +0100

Yesterdays intake was actually really good!

breakfast: apple and cinnamon yoghurt with cheerios and an apple

snack: toast with peanut butter

lunch: pret superfood salad (lettuce, humous, seedes, quinoa, roasted peppers and beans), half a chocolate brownie and half a rocky road

snack: two carrots with humous, two caramel chocolate digestives, three oreos

dinner: two poppadoms with mango chutney, two vegetable samosas, an onion bhaji, some salad, rice, three types of vegetable curry (lots of it), naan bread, and I was so drunk that I accidentally ate chicken korma even though I’m a vegetarian

drinks: glass of wine, shot of apple sourz, 8 glasses of vodka and squash, vodka and cranberry juice, 3 jeiger bombs

Very drunk Beth

Were you hungrier yesterday?

Wed, 15 May 2013 11:19:15 +0100

Yes, a little bit, but I was only awake for 11 hours… haha

This is my intake:

lunch: tofu and tomato chilli with a roasted sweet potato salad and a broolli and pea salad (from a delhi, so huge and filling!)

snack: 5 chocolate digestives and an apple

dinner: huge bowl of pasta with roasted vegetable sauce and brocolli

snack: orange, two chocolate penguin bars

Beth please please just WAKE UP! Not literally but figuratively. You KNOW you're not trying - you're giving in, making excuses, ignoring the thing that has eaten away at your existence for the past 5 years. You've been giving yourself pushes, and as I said before, just unconsciously giving up and ignoring the fact you have. You need a drastic transformation, we all have faith in you. You just need to have the courage. It won't be easy but you know that in order to be truly happy it must be done

Wed, 15 May 2013 11:16:24 +0100

;(

Intake

Mon, 13 May 2013 21:33:58 +0100

It was kind if hard today as I have had no appetite and basically not left my room. I’ve had to force mysel to eat. I wish I could enjoy food again and find it exciting like I did at the beginning of recovery.

Breakfast: bowl of honey Cheerios

Lunch: two slices of seeded toast with humous, two carrots with humous, rhubarb yoghurt

Snack: apple and two chocolate digestives

Dinner: large sun dried tomato and pesto pizza, orange juice

Snack: 2 penguin bars

Why have I been so full!? Aaah.

#cheeringinafield

Mon, 13 May 2013 19:39:57 +0100

#cheeringinafield

Okay every night you should come here and post your intake that seems to motivate you as it is embarrassing for you to post tiny meal plans?

Mon, 13 May 2013 16:00:26 +0100

this is true. I will try. Wah. Why is this so hard?

It’s so easy to lie to yourself in recovery and to believe yourself when you lie. It’s so easy to lie to other people in the same way that you lie to yourself so that this big lie feels real. It’s absolutely terrifying to look at the truth, hell, I don’t even know how you find the truth. How do I actually feel? What do I actually want? I have no fucking idea!!!!!!

fml.

I am being a massive drama queen but bleh.

Photo

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:57:51 +0100

vintagefoods: Crepes with mascarpone and blackberries (di...

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:53:37 +0100

vintagefoods:

Crepes with mascarpone and blackberries (di letterberry)

Since you've been back at university can you honestly say you've put your all into recovery? You seem to go through phases of 100% commitment and then almost unconsciously give up trying. It's like you unknowingly prevent yourself from full recovery every time as you give yourself a massive push and then it just teeters off without you acknowledging it. Please don't take this as an insult. I know how much you want to recover, I just think in reality if you continue this way you never will

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:53:14 +0100

It’s like you are literally reading my mind. Who are you?

When does your term at university end and you go home again?

Mon, 13 May 2013 15:52:48 +0100

Term ends on the fifteenth of June I think. Then I am home for 10 days before going to India wooh!