Haha thanks. I do have a life, and I don’t mind posting my intake but I will do it when I have time.
Breakfast: 2 golden syrup weetabix with hot milk
Lunch 1: tuna bean salad, tomato and basil pasta salad, couscous with roasted vegetables and green salad with roasted tomatoes and dressing
Lunch 2: large plate of chips (haha, needed this after all the salad)
Snack: fruit salad, 2 chocolate digestives
Dinner: large wagamama ramen with noodles, soup, fried tofu and vegetables
Drinks: 4 double vodka lemonades
Snack: pack of hula hoops, a piece of toast with Nutella and a handful of maoam sweets
I’m on my way back to London for the weekend (yay!) I had a tough couple of days at uni and wanted to escape. I want my mum and my home friends and my bed and a bath.
For fucks sake people, stop collaring Beth. If she forgets to post her intake so be it - she has a life to lead you know!! It's not everyones responsibility to badger her about things. Whilst of course it is nice to demonstrate care - placing demands e.g. 'you should keep us updated' is not freaking cool!!!
Beth keep us plated in here please, what has happened? Things seem to have gone hugely downhill?
Yesterdays intake was actually really good!
breakfast: apple and cinnamon yoghurt with cheerios and an apple
snack: toast with peanut butter
lunch: pret superfood salad (lettuce, humous, seedes, quinoa, roasted peppers and beans), half a chocolate brownie and half a rocky road
snack: two carrots with humous, two caramel chocolate digestives, three oreos
dinner: two poppadoms with mango chutney, two vegetable samosas, an onion bhaji, some salad, rice, three types of vegetable curry (lots of it), naan bread, and I was so drunk that I accidentally ate chicken korma even though I’m a vegetarian
drinks: glass of wine, shot of apple sourz, 8 glasses of vodka and squash, vodka and cranberry juice, 3 jeiger bombs
Very drunk Beth
Were you hungrier yesterday?
Yes, a little bit, but I was only awake for 11 hours… haha
This is my intake:
lunch: tofu and tomato chilli with a roasted sweet potato salad and a broolli and pea salad (from a delhi, so huge and filling!)
snack: 5 chocolate digestives and an apple
dinner: huge bowl of pasta with roasted vegetable sauce and brocolli
snack: orange, two chocolate penguin bars
Beth please please just WAKE UP! Not literally but figuratively. You KNOW you're not trying - you're giving in, making excuses, ignoring the thing that has eaten away at your existence for the past 5 years. You've been giving yourself pushes, and as I said before, just unconsciously giving up and ignoring the fact you have. You need a drastic transformation, we all have faith in you. You just need to have the courage. It won't be easy but you know that in order to be truly happy it must be done
It was kind if hard today as I have had no appetite and basically not left my room. I’ve had to force mysel to eat. I wish I could enjoy food again and find it exciting like I did at the beginning of recovery.
Breakfast: bowl of honey Cheerios
Lunch: two slices of seeded toast with humous, two carrots with humous, rhubarb yoghurt
Snack: apple and two chocolate digestives
Dinner: large sun dried tomato and pesto pizza, orange juice
Snack: 2 penguin bars
Why have I been so full!? Aaah.
Okay every night you should come here and post your intake that seems to motivate you as it is embarrassing for you to post tiny meal plans?
this is true. I will try. Wah. Why is this so hard?
It’s so easy to lie to yourself in recovery and to believe yourself when you lie. It’s so easy to lie to other people in the same way that you lie to yourself so that this big lie feels real. It’s absolutely terrifying to look at the truth, hell, I don’t even know how you find the truth. How do I actually feel? What do I actually want? I have no fucking idea!!!!!!
I am being a massive drama queen but bleh.