Yes…. How do you know this?
Did you get your makeup done in Debenhams?
Before and after my mac makeover.
It’s Christmas jumper time!
I’m going to a ball tomorrow that cost £120. And I just booked a makeup session that cost £30 worth of makeup. Lol. I’m justifying it to myself because I never ever by makeup for myself and I probably won’t look this pretty again for a while. Plus I’ve paid £120 for a night I want to look good! Il post a photo tomorrow, who knows? Maybe il look like a whole new person.
Guilt is temporary you are right! Would you share what you had at the thanksgiving meal and day yesterday? I am from the us and feel the same about my thanksgiving day!
I can’t remember what I ate in the day but dinner was roast parsnip soup with a warm bread roll to start, followed by some kind of but stuffing in pastry (im vegetarian), gravy, roasted sweet potato mash with goats cheese, curly fries (are these standard thanksgiving food?) and broccoli. Pudding was pumpkin pie and ice cream.
Although I felt guilty at the time, in retrospect I feel glad i are every morsel that I did because it only made ED angry.
I had thanksgiving dinner in Christ church hall last night, which is the inspiration for the Harry potter hall. It was beautiful and the food was good and I was with some really good friends. I just wish I hadn’t spent so much of the time, thinking, worrying about and scrutinising the food. I ate past fullness and felt guilty, especially because I are lots of pumpkin pie. But I worked through the feelings of guilt, had some chocolate before bed and today is a new day. Again, guilt is temporary.
Hey Beth :) I think if speaking to your coach gives you the reassurance you need then you should definitely do it! I'm sure you'll still be able t fly- that 2-3kg is very important for your health but honestly I highly highly doubt it will have any impact on cheerleading so don't worry! That weight will have so many other benefits though- the osteoporosis scare is just one of many! I know yo can do this Beth xxx
Thanks Hannah! Your words are wise and I really needed to hear them.
I had a bit of a breakdown last night when I was drunk and spent the whole night crying. It was basically speakers by my ED because two other flyers from cheer, who I was out with wer talking about their weights, which were lower than mine. I am by far the tallest flyer but it’s okay because I’m skinny. The whole osteoporosis diagnosis has scared me into gaining weight. I got really sad because I realised that if I gained weight I might not be able to fly anymore and I love flying so so much. I’ve literally never enjoyed a sport before cheerleading in my life an now I’m so happy.
I don’t know what to do.
The rational side of my brain is saying 2-3 kilos really won’t make that much difference because I’m good a flyer and it’s not so much about what I weigh but how tight I stay when I’m thrown in the air, which I can still do if I gained.
Part of me wants to talk to my coach to check I would still be able to fly if I were 3 kilos heavier. But another part of me thinks this will be needy and annoying for her. There are some flyers (maybe one) who is heavier than me anyway.
My ED is telling me this realisation means I any gain weight and need to restrict so I can keep flying. Aaaah.